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[fujibayashi]

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[skirtcladgunner]

[Another pause of hesitation--however, this one is much longer than any of the others. It's not so much that her next question may or may not apply to Kaneis (she doesn't know, she doesn't know) as much as it is that it heavily applies to herself.

And that she's (mostly) asking it because of herself, because it's something she's tried so desperately to keep to herself and after what happened today... she really can't bring herself to more.]

...Sheena, is it wrong for someone to create a different image of themselves while they're here? [Her voice is terse, on edge. Almost afraid.] Say that someone's background wasn't happy back home--is it okay to pretend to lead a different life while they're here, even if it won't last?

[In a way, it's what she's been doing. Isn't it? How funny that she would never do that back home, but now that she's away from it all, well... here she is.

She has no reason to keep being who she was back home. Not without them.]

[fujibayashi]

[Yeah, no, she just thinks Tori is talking about Zelos.]

Why would that be wrong? As long as they're not hurting someone, then they can live however they want to.

[skirtcladgunner]

You really think that?

[She sounds happy, perhaps a little too relieved for it to be about Zelos.]

Because ever since I came here, I've been doing that. I mean, not to a huge extent or anything like that! But just pretending enough to distance myself from who I was back home. You know what I mean?

[It's a step. She doesn't trust Sheena enough to tell the other girl why she's been pretending, but enough to tell her that she's been hiding at all.

She's not even entirely sure why she trusts Sheena as much as she does, even. Perhaps it goes beyond being given no real reason to be suspicious of Sheena beyond the norm. Sheena... always seems concerned about her when they talk. It's comforting, familiar in a way Tori certainly doesn't mind.

It's a good, yet terrifying feeling.]

...sorry, I got off topic. But since I had already contacted you about Kaneis, I thought I'd get that off my chest too.

[fujibayashi]

I think I understand. I mean... there's a lot of stuff at home I'm not proud of. But it doesn't matter here, I think.

[Oh, so it's not about Zelos-- that's easier to deal with. Okay. Calm the assumptions. Tori really doesn't know anything, huh.]

It's okay. We're friends, right? You can talk to me about anything.

At least... I think that's what friends are for. I'm... kinda not used to having them, but you knew that.

[skirtcladgunner]

Yeah! I'm pretty sure it's what friends are for too. [At least, in her experience.] And you're a damn good friend, too. Thank you, Sheena.

[She laughs, relieved.]

And maybe you're right. Maybe none of it does matter here. And maybe I can learn to believe that, if I try hard enough.